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Name: Amber Lane
Country: United States
State: Arkansas
Metro: Russellville
Birthday: 7/17/1986
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Friday, December 04, 2009

today will be a bad day
but I will live,
and tommorrow will be better.

keep on keepin' on.


Tuesday, December 01, 2009

being sick all the time is really starting to take it's toll on me.
i've thrown up so much today that i have nothing left to expel from my body,
yet my body continues to try.
surgery is friday, and i'm really nervous about it,
but i'm so tired of feeling sick that i'm just ready to get it over with.

i've hardly had any motivation to take any pictures lately.
it's really depressing.
i think the reason is because i moved on from the camera i have a long time ago.
when you know how to paint with oils,
crayons just don't cut it, you know?

i found out today that the 40's station in my car
has switched to "holiday classics."
it was a pretty exciting moment.
i love christmas. lights and giving gifts and noms and family.
just love it.

i'm wearing justen's nine inch nails shirt
and a plaid shirt over that.
i probably couldn't look more 90s if i tried.

they might be giants never gets old.


Thursday, November 26, 2009

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and happy thanksgiving
to all of you lucky bastards
who get to stuff themselves with food
and see their families.
I'm jealous. and want your turkey.


Tuesday, November 24, 2009

just because I don't hate you,
does not, by any means, mean I like you.
seriously. I find it vain to assume something like that.

also, if someone doesn't give you their number,
they probably didn't want you to have it.
or think it's okay to text them.

I'm done acting like a child.
This isn't about you.
That's all.


Thursday, November 19, 2009

Currently
Mr. Tambourine Man
By The Byrds
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if I was crying
in the van, with my friend
it was for freedom
from myself and from the land
I made a lot of mistakes

i would give my ovaries
if my boss would turn the heat on in this studio.
literally 50-something degrees in here.
it's hard to work when you can't feel your fingers.

i don't mean to get mushy,
but it happens sometimes.
i'm fairly sure i hit the boyfriend jackpot.
seriously.
it's so nice to date someone whom you were friends with for a long time first.
i'm a really lucky girl.
i get to fall asleep next to someone i adore every night
and wake up next to them every morning.

here's my theory:
there are so many people in the world who crave human interaction.
people who go to work, run their errands, come home alone,
and never have the opportunity to even touch another human being.
then there are people who have the opportunity for human interaction
and forming real connections with people,
and they don't even appreciate what they have.
i appreciate every hug or smile or touch of the hand that i receive.
and, on top of that, i get the opportunity to experience this uniquely human phenomenon with an amazing person.
someone who laughs with me and smiles with me
and knows me better than i know myself sometimes.

out of all of the people in the world who never experience anything like that,
i was picked out to feel it.
and i get to feel it more than most people.
that must make me pretty special.
and it definitely makes me really happy.
i am a lucky person, despite everything else.



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